I'll be changing that tag line soon! Hahaha. That is so much contradicting with what I am feeling right now but that is what I badly need right now. Wait for the new tagline though.
Anyway, why am I so depressed right now? It is because I am sick again and I am maxing out my healthcard's credit limit. I now know how it feels like to be the sole provider for my family and it sucks, it sucks big time. The fact that I am sick right now makes me feel so helpless. That a day or two from now, we might not have anything on our plates. My mom is undergoing dialysis three fucking times per week and is on maintenance for diabetes and hypertension. My brother has lung tb and also on continuous medication. I have a large, throbbing bulge in my ear which is what I needed the most to do my job as a call taker. Yes, my life sucks right now and it is sucking the life out of me. I do get it now why poor people in movies still go to work even at the verge of their health because they have to. I want to do the same but I need fit-to-work clearance. Good thing I have a girlfriend that makes me sane. Oh wait! She's mad at me because my cell network also sucks which I will not subscribe to if only I knew this beforehand! Im sad and mad and frustrated and a whole lot of things but I still keep the faith that something good will come out from all of these. Im still not losing hope. I just need to let this out.
