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"Anyone can make you happy by doing something special, but only someone special can make you happy without doing anything." from a text friend Andrei. I could have replied you are the one, but nah, I am happy with the one I have right now. I am over him now that makes me confident enough to share my thoughts about him. Y Our relationship ended because I am such an idealist. I believed before that I'd rather have friends than a lover. What if you're friend is head over heels over your lover, of course with that thinking you'll choose your friend. That was a big heartache for me. Now, I came to realisation that that idea is just partially true. Y Lots of times, you wanted a friend by your side; to cry with, laugh with, box with, make chika with, and other stuffs. But a friend is not someone you can call your own. When a friend starts to have a boyfriend, smorgasbord of jealousy enters, but the sad part is you cannot do anything about it unless you see that guy with other woman, or, a man. Oh well, that is mean and you cannot wish that for a friend. So, there comes your boyfriend; almost a friend with lots of benefits. Y A boyfriend shouldn't be a bestfriend, there should be a limitation in friending a boyfriend. You tell everything to your bestfriend which is not the case with your man (of course, you wouldn't tell your boyfriend your fantasies about other men). A boyfriend is also someone you can cry with, laugh with, box with, make chika with, and then kiss after and other benefits you could imagine. So the bottomline is I'm still young then and I don't know what I am thinking, hehe. I tried to win him back, but I was not successful in doing so. As I was contemplating about the past, I thought to my thoughts, "was it because I was not able to see the things I hate about him as a lover that is why I am feeling this way, or was it because I'm not yet satiated with the relationship that we have because it ended halfway?" Hmmmnnn, I think it is the latter. Y Some people describes me as a person who will work hard for something and then pall after a while. That is how most of my relationships ended, and that experience I have not felt with him. THAT made me hold on, but I lost grip when I met my current boyfriend. Y When you love, you see friendship in every face, harmony in every leaf - and you experience tremendous sense of warmth and belonging. Y He is kinda different. I have seen lots of hateful things from him. My girlfriends are always pushing me to leave him but I just cant. I love him. I am not stupid by sticking with him; I just learned to love those hateful things and it is not that he abuses me or something. The mere thought of him makes me happy. I feel needed when I am with him. Haay, this is the first time that I admit my feelings to my friends and most of all to myself that I am finally in love. I love the feeling of falling everytime I am with him. It must be the mysterious personality that makes me hooked up on him. I know every inch of his body but only an inch of his soul. Every meeting makes me wanting more, knowing more, just like how a tv series goes, but I hope this one won't end. Y 1 SMS received Y Hurriedly, almost tripping changing clothes, and swooshing off to see him.