"I don't want a boa with an elephant inside!"

"If someone loves a flower, of which just one single blossom grows in all the millions and millions of stars. He can say to himself: 'Somewhere, my flower is there...' But if the sheep eats the flower, in one moment all his stars will be darkened..." - Little Prince

We all went through losing somebody so important in our lives. Whether it's a boyfriend/girlfriend, parents, a dog, a big part of us suddenly vanishes. We feel this emptiness, that nothing in this world matter...that we are willing to lose everything that we have, even sell our soul, just to get them back. With millions of people I see everyday in the streets as I take my usual routes, there's only one person I wish to dream of at night. Having somebody to call your own makes good things feels great and makes bad things just fine. The feeling you are needed by this person the same way you needed him makes life full of meaning. When we graduated college, is it only for the sake of earning a diploma and look for a good job? Or, also for the parents who stayed overtime in the office just to send us our allowances the next morning? When people work hard and save up, is it only for the future? Or, is it for the future with? There is always a somebody whom we offer all our achievements in life. We may not admit it but in the back of our minds we are happy that that person appreciated what we've done for them. We suddenly become responsible for their emotions, and everything that person does affects us easily. You become happy with the thought that he/she is happy. Your heart crushes when you feel his/her sorrow and do everything to make him/her happy again. But what will happen when that person go away? Great things are ignored and bad things become worst. All you can see is black and white. Dragging your foot as you walk your usual routes, thinking you shouldn't have woken up. This is what the Little Prince fears, losing the one who gives definition to his life: the rose. The Little Prince waters her, put her inside a glass so that the heat of the sun will not wilt the flower, removes the glass so that the flower can breath, and spend the day pulling out baobabs amidst the thought that someday he will lose her. Losing the rose will make morning just a time of the day the sun rises. There's a Little Prince in all of us, fearsome of losing the people that makes us happy and complete. But some of us don't know how to take care of their roses like what the Little Prince did.

"It is the time you have wasted for your rose that makes your rose so important." - Fox

PHONE SEX

TELL ME WHICH POSITION YOU LIKE BEST!!! HAHAHA!

The sky is grey and I am blue

Is there any scientific explanation why we feel blue everytime the rain pours? Is it because of media? Is it because it's almost always raining during the saddest part of a movie? Breaking up of lovers...a loved one dying (at worst, shouting his/her name) Or is it just us trying to compare ourselves with the sky and the rain? The world suddenly loses its vibrance. After a month long of scorching heat (and sweaty underarms, hehe), here we are again, getting our ass fat with champorado and tuyo, magnetized to our warm beds, and slouched on our couches watching DVDs the whole day. Most people find this season boring and I'm one of them; missing the stuffs you love doing under the sun. But don't you sometimes find it relaxing? Having you only for yourself, no other people to bug you, no feelings getting hurt, no ideas being rejected...All your mental torments (that's a hard one) being washed away as you imagine yourself drenched under the grey sky (singing laughter in the rain, hahaha). Right now I'm here in the office, listening to incognito (which is just right), imagining myself having a warm coffee, reading a good book, petting my dog, being in my calmest state, nothing to worry about. Well, it's all just imagination, break's over, still have things to do.

Team Building May 20-21, 2007 (Taal Lake)

It is so much fun to be a part of this team!

May 15, 2027

Dear future Ria,

Isa na namang maghapon na wala akong magawa dito sa office at sa aking pag blo-blog hopping eh nakakuha na naman ako ng ideya sa blogkadahan.com. Tema nila ngayon ang pagsulat sa future self, kaya eto sinusulatan kita.

After 20 years malamang 43 ka na. I cant imagine the wrinkles, ang lines, ang pores! My goodness, baka saggy breast and butt ka na! Not to offend you noh, pero sana naman naisipan mo nang magexercise, sana lang yung mga plano ko ngayon na magenroll sa gym at bumili ng stationary bike ay naisipan mo nang gawin. Nai-stop mo na kaya yang paninigarilyo mo? Ngayon kasi I'm trying my best na itigil na, max of 5 sticks na ko ngayon, minsan less pa. Kaso nga lang talaga may times na di ko maiwasang manigarilyo kapag nagkakape at umiinom. I guess wala ka na sa bansang Pilipinas ngayon, or kung anjan ka pa rin eh maganda naman siguro ang trabaho mo. Masyado akong ambisyosa sa mga panahong ito pero wala naman akong ginagawa para matupad yung mga ambisyon na yun. Sana hindi nahuli ang paggising mo!

To remind you, as of this moment eh andito ka sa DPI, naghihintay ng trabahong ibabato sayo. You're earning only enough for your own. Ang current boyfriend mo ngayon eh si Sir Dong, okay naman ang relationship nyo, with same issues pero nabawasan naman na. So far so good naman ang health ni mommy and currently hindi sa bahay nakatira si kuya. Nawalan pala ng pera ang mommy kaya eto tight ang budget ngayon.

Sana may improvement ang lahat ng mga yan sa panahon mo. Nagkatuluyan kaya kayo? Sana masaya ka sa lahat ng pinili mo. May hang-ups pa kasi ako as of this moment eh. I can never can tell, hehe.

I hope everything is good in your time. If you have a husband and kids, kiss them for me. If mom is still there, call her and say that I really, really love her, and thank her for everything; without her, you will not be what you are right now. If dad is still there also, tell him that you love him.

Hanggang dito na lamang.

Nagmamahal,

Past Ria

Lhen is mad at me!!!!

Huhuhu, i dont like this feeling that my friend is mad at me. She was my friend since highschool and i did not anticipated that she will be mad at me in the extreme! She does not want to talk to me. Im not in favor with texting especially if that person is mad at you because stuffs can be easily misinterpreted and i dont want that to happen. Well Lhen is the least closest kabarkada of mine from highschool, that is why she took what I've said seriously, but the thing is she is still a close friend of mine. Here is the story, though i dont have a clear memory of that event: She and JP (which is also a close friend of mine) had a serious fight and I IM'ed him saying "wag ka masyadong magseryoso, maraming namang ibang girls jan..." by the way, they are having a long-distance relationship. Im sure that I have sent my concern for their relationship and, for me, what I've said is just a big joke. I never, in any relationship, had any true intentions about what I've said. It just saddens me that she took it that way. IT IS THE WAY I TALK! I always say that stuff when two people are fighting or, worst, break up. We also had a fight before because of her eyebrows, hehe, and it took us a very long time, for almost a year, to reconcile. Oh well, me and my very big mouth! She is mad at me since November last year and I knew it about 30 mins ago, and now Im really eager to explain to her my side of the story but she does not want to talk to me. I know it's my bad and Im really really sorry for that. I dont know how to make up with her.... I just hope that our relationship will be ok, soon. *tears tears tears*