missing him...

I just find myself searching for his multiply account. I can't remember the name of his account anymore. I finally got relieved because I know that I am finally losing the part of me that is holding on to him. But I feel sad because I really lose him. I don't know now what has happened to him. Especially now that Intel closed down, which we have been discussing for months, and it has finally come true. I do not know his whereabouts. I do not know his plans. I do not know anything from him. It saddens me. I have already accepted the fact that we are no longer, and will never work out as a couple. But part me of me still wants him, even as a friend.