I bet you think this blog is about you, dont you?! dont you?!

"We are all vain!" according to my friend while we are arguing which blog site is better; friendster or blogspot. He says, "Of course, you'll write for the others to read. You wouldn't want to write something unless you want someone to read it." And I replied, "I am not a fan of it." Then there was silence. Maybe he thinks that writing is nonsense if you cant showcase it, but not for me. Like what I have said on my previous entries, I just wanted a place to put into words whatever I am feeling, whether other people read it or not, I really dont care. This is a live journal, it is not like I am earning here. I could have written down my thoughts on a diary, but this is the most accessible medium i could ever laid my hand on. Maybe when I write, I am always assuming that there is a "you," like I am talking to someone which could be you, a reader. I still can remember when i was a kid, whenever I am depressed or just had a big fight with my mom, I'll go to my room, stand in front of a mirror and start talking to myself as if I am a different person. I'll talk, think what her response could be, and then I'll talk back. its not like I am crazy or something, its just nice to know that somehow we are not alone. I am not a very sharing person, I'm not a talker, I'm just a listener. I am not comfortable going to someone, even a friend, to share my feelings, I only listen to theirs and be the stronger one. And sometimes, it's nice to be the one to do the talking, or writing in this case, and be able to get a response and not be disappointed by it. We all have our own imaginary friend when we are kids, and i still have one, even though I am earning my own money, which is you. Talking in front of mirror when you are a child seems cute, but when you're at my age, you'd be crazy. Its nice having you, my friend.