unfriendly friendliness

I have a very bad character of taking my friends for granted. I am never known to have a gang of friends. I know it is easy for me to get along with people, i know how to adjust to their moods and attitude but I never have a large group of friends in any particular place; whether in high school, college, or work. I only have a close knit of friends, which does not include my toes if I count them. You can place me in a room full of people and i could have a nice conversation with them but you will only hear me whispering to one person. But I really really appreciate those people who stick with me and can get my moods. I love them for just being there and being my friends. Those whom even I say nasty things to them and gave sharp looks, i love you. Thank you for just being a friend. Here are a list of my friends. I may not be in constant communication with them but they played and is playing a big part of my life and of who I am. This is not in any order, but may be the longest I have known :) 1. Ghie 2. Grace 3. Sherie 4. Kyle 5. Tinie 6. Roma 7. Jun See! It is not even a handful! These are the special people in my life and I will swallow all of my pride not just to lose them. I only have a few, but they are the ones that make life happier to live.