1. Got my hair cut - check
2. Changed my number - check
3. Coping up - getting there
I'm taking the part of coping up in baby steps. Lately, it seems like I don't want to be around people. I want to deal with this by myself for a small period of time. I am not yet ready to tell my friends about what happened. I am scared that I might break down and look like an ass in front of them. I haven't checked my email also, I am scared of what he might reply. My heart is at its weakest point at the moment. So while I am strolling in SM and canvassing on how much a perm would cost, I decided to just make my hair shorter, shoulder length. I already forgot how it feels to have a really short hair, don't know if I can still carry that lock. The receptionist told me that I still cannot perm my hair because I previously had it rebonded. One thing is for sure, I need to wake up 2 hours earlier to just fix my hair, tedious but it is part of moving on.
I changed my number. I have a really good reason of changing without them thinking of something wrong and without me sounding pathetic. My sim is old anyway so that would be a good excuse. I still have 200 people who don't know that I have changed my number, so I might need to load up big time tomorrow to inform them. Good thing the Guy's friends are not really close to me so there is no other way for him to track me.
My first day in the office in this state is a success. I acted natural and I don't think they have a hint of what I am going through right now and I thank tinie for keeping her word.
Tomorrow would be another day...
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