WARNING: Loving Is Dangerous To Your Health

If there is an IV dye that can detect the protein that causes loneliness, you can definitely see that it is already creeping to my veins and finally reaching my brain. I had made a decision and there is no backing out. I have everything ready, the letter, the plan of changing number (my sim card is acting weird anyways), getting my hair done, and the coping up that I need to do. Singledom scares me. but I need to face it. I need time to be alone and contemplate on the things that I really wanted in life. I'm planning to stay single for a while. No pressure of finding another person who will make my heart beat again. Just like what I said to a friend, being in a relationship is like smoking. After a stick, you will be craving for another one. Once you started smoking, you can't stop unless you have the willpower to do it. It is so addicting but I don't want to resort to meds, and worse, alcohol. I have to do it on my own with a little help from my friends. But when you sleep at night, that is when the venom of loneliness flows into your system that will make your extremities numb and fill your ducts with tears and clog your nose, making it hard to breathe. This is what scares me the most. But I need to be strong. I need to take care of myself before I get into another relationship again. No matter how hard it seems to be, I know I can do it.